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An Update

I have been very busy with work and writing lately, but I thought I’d give you an update. I have signed up for Scribophile under Matthew Hess, Writing.com under BD Hesse, and Writer’s Cafe also under BD Hesse, so anyone with accounts at any of thos sites can feel free to find me there.
Eventually I’m hoping to get back to my The Boy in the Woods story, but my first priority is trying to get a short story published. I also want to go over some of my other stories and edit them, but that will be done after I finish The Boy in the Woods.
In the meantime, I will try to post more regularily.

Contemplations On Life

Have you ever found yourself suddenly shifting the majority of your goals all at once? I feel like that is what I’ve been doing lately. I still want to write. I still want to get published. But I feel like a lot of my other goals are suddenly far different that they had been even just a month ago.
When I began university, I wanted to get my doctorate in History. I wanted to become a Historian and get my work published in academic journals. I wanted to work mostly in the field, but teach at a university too. That was my goal years ago.
That goal didn’t change until around 2-3 years ago (I’ve been in university for a long time). I began to consider adding Philosophy as a second major, which I ended up doing. My goal at that time was still to get my PhD, but now I was considering something a bit different. I didn’t know if I’d get my PhD in History or Philosophy, I did, however, want to get a masters degree in which ever one I didn’t get my PhD in. I very much wanted to be an academic. Then my now fiance rekindled my interest in writing fiction.
For the last two years I have wanted nothing more than to become a published fiction writer. I have wanted to write fantasy, but also other genres, and make a living off that. And I completely lost my interest in academia. Actually, for the last year I had lost my interest in school all together. Not only did I not want to persue a PhD, I didn’t even want to persue my studies. I just wanted to write. I just wanted to get something published. And that is still my main goal.
But there was a problem: what would I do other than write? Few people manage to make writing their sole career. Writing doesn’t pay that well, so most writers have a “day job.” But I had no idea what I wanted my day job to be. But I recently got a job at a bookstore (does anybody know how to keep one’s self from spending an entire paycheck on books when temptation lies around every corner? I have bills to pay!), and I met a teacher while interviewing for the position. Ever since then I’ve been thinking about teaching and I finally figured out what I want my day job to be: I want to be a teacher! This revelation struck me because I was initially going to go into education when I began at university but I decided last minute that I actually had no interest in teaching. Now I’ve decided that I actually do want to teach. In fact, I want to teach young children. I’ve even been going on to various university websites to see what they offer. Crap, now I’m looking at more schooling and another degree. And the program I’m most interested in only offers a four year option. Oh well, at least I’ve regained my interest in school and learning. But I couldn’t I have figured out that I wanted to write fiction and teach all those years ago when I first began my university career? Why did I have to figure out what I really wanted when my degree is nearly done? Then again, if I hadn’t figured it out now, I would be in a completely different place in my life, and I like where I am now.

My One Year Anniversary!

Was actually two days ago, but I guess I’ll announce it now :P. I’ve been writing this blog for a year now and it’s going great. Thank you for all of the support.

What’s In a Painting?

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I thought I’d do something a bit different today and talk about a painting I like. I chose the one above by Rob Gonsalves. I like this paining because it demonstrates the imagination that people are capable of. I can imagine a group of children who were sent to bed by their parents or caregivers. Two of the children start jumping on the bed as soon as the children are alone. One of the children then creates a game and a world without much thought. She has determined that she is now flying through the sky and there are fields below her and hills around her. It’s the kind of thing that most children do, but that society tries to eliminate as quickly as possible.

On Writing Advise

We all know the writing advise that goes around. For the most part, it’s always the same: write every day, bad writing is better than know writing, read a lot, watch movies, show don’t tell, etc. But what about when that advise isn’t possible? What about when you just can’t do it?

I can’t just make myself write. I’ve tried, but I get about six words out, then I erase it and write six different words only to erase that. The more I try to push myself, the more frustrated I get. I end up unable to even put six words on paper. In the end, I have nothing written. Is that really better than waiting until I have something to write? It seems silly to frustrate yourself and risk losing your interest in writing when you could just give yourself a day off.

Stephen King says he makes himself write 2000 words a day. But he also publishes numerous novels a year. Most authors only publish one book a year. Some don’t even do that much. George R. R. Martin is a well-known and loved author, but he’s been writing the latest Game of Thrones novel for years. So why are we told that our success lies in our ability to write everyday, even if it’s crap?

Personally, I’ve been struggling with my writing lately. I want to keep trying to get published. I have an entire plan set up for May-August, but I can’t even get myself to care about writing. I’ve been having a hard enough time caring about life in general. Right now I need to worry about my mental health, but I really want to write too. I miss my passion for writing. So what happens when the writing advise doesn’t work?

I’ve Been Busy…

Tuesday was my last day of classes. I just handed in my second last paper today. I have a final exam on the 22nd and another paper due on the 29th. As such, I’ve been very busy recently. I’ve also been trying to do Camp NaNoWriMo. I’m at 4700 words of my 10,000 word goal.

I’ve also recently been re-updating my plan to get published. With any luck, this plan will get me published.

I’ll try to post more regularly this month, but I’ll be busy until the 29th, so no promises.

Why Won’t My Ideas Let Me Sleep?

For the last few nights I’ve been getting story idea late at night. I have so many ideas going through my head that it’s all I can do to write them down. If and when I get published, I really hope I can find someone willing to let me publish more than one genre, because I doubt I could stick to just one.

Do You Have Any Book Recommendations?

If you recall, a few days ago I asked if you would read only books written by people who are not straight cis white men. That got me thinking about my own reading list. My non-fiction section if fairly diverse, but my fiction section is largly white and straight (though I do read a lot of books written by women). As such, I’m looking for some recommendations. Can anybody suggest any awesome novels (preferably sci fi, fantasy, and horror) written by people of colour and LGBT people?

Whould You Avoid Reading Books by Straight Cis White Men?

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Have you heard about the challenge to read books written but people who aren’t straight cis (not trans) white men? The writing industry is made up largely of straight cis white men, so the point of the challenge is to get people reading books by marginalized groups who tend to be ignored by publishers and readers.

So would you take this challenge? Why or why not?

http://www.xojane.com/entertainment/reading-challenge-stop-reading-white-straight-cis-male-authors-for-one-year

An Unusual Superpower

What would you do if you could change your sex at will? Why would you do that? What would changing your sex achieve for you?

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